12 Weeks Pregnant and Still Dying

The good news is, the first trimester is just about over and this baby does not appear to be trying to kill itself. The bad news is that I’m still very very sick, quite a lot of the time.

Courtesy of the doctor, I’m now on the maximum dose of the diclegis, which means I’m groggy much of the time, plus zofran, and I’m barely managing to eat more than about half a day’s worth of food every other day or so. I’m not weighing myself anymore, so I don’t know what that looks like, but I would not be surprised to hear that I’m losing some weight. Which is fine, obviously, at my current weight. Fine for the baby, but pretty miserable for me.

I hope you all had a lovely holiday. We had a good one over here. I spent a lot of time with the children, and we’re getting a generic roomba for a Christmas present, due to arrive here tomorrow. I expect it to change my life.

Later this week, we start the diagnostic testing for this baby. The ultrasound measuring the nuchal width (how thick the neck is) and the companion blood test that should give us an idea what we’re looking at for Down’s syndrome and other chromosomal issues. If that risk level is higher than 1 in 250, we’ll move to the invasive tests, either the amnio or the CVS test, both of which carry a risk of miscarriage but should give a definitive answer to whether or not the kid has major problems.

If indeed the child has major issues, we may decide to terminate, which would be devastating. But fortunately, in Illinois, that process is not impossible for me the way it would be if I lived in other states. Although my doctor cannot perform the procedure, because he’s affiliated with a Catholic hospital and they ban all their doctors from performing abortions, apparently. Still. I sincerely hope that it doesn’t come to that. I always thought I could make that call if the child had major health issues, but the further this pregnancy goes, the harder that feels. In any event, this is going to be a stressful week, this week and next, until we get the results of the tests.




It’s a….Blob

We had our first visit with the OB yesterday. The ultrasound shows a single baby (thank GOD, twins run in my family) and the heart rate is good. The size is good, and we have a confirmed estimated due date of July 12th.

The doctor took a million vials of blood. So much blood, really. And then there’s a thing that’s not great, and that’s the screening for Down’s and other chromosomal issues, which we’re supposed to do next visit at the end of the month. That test is over a thousand dollars (for a BLOOD TEST! MADNESS!) and apparently it’s not always covered by the insurance.

On my list of things to do this week or next, then, is to call the insurance company and see if they’ll cover it. They SHOULD, because I’m 35 and therefore diagnosed as Advanced Maternal Age, but if they don’t, I don’t have an extra 1000 dollars this month or ANY month. But having a Down’s baby will cost more than that, so it’d be worth the cost of the test, assuming we can find a way to get that money.

In other news, I’m not working hardly at all because the morning sickness has been relentless. Completely relentless. The doctor prescribed me diclegis and I took a dose yesterday. You’re supposed to take it at night and it lasts all day. It’s better, in that I’m not sitting quietly trying not to vomit all day, but I’m so tired. So so so tired. And I’m still not interested in food.

Here in Chicago it’s been a rough couple of weeks, as you all probably know. Protests, and the college campus being shut down, forced resignations, more protests. We’re just all hunkering in and hoping for the best. Keep us in mind.

In positive news: Hanukkah starts this weekend! Latkes! Jelly donuts! Hopefully I can eat all the things, because I love Hanukkah foods. If you haven’t had latkes, I recommend them. I like them with both applesauce and sour cream, although there are some that will argue strongly for one or the other.

As for how to make latkes, there are recipes everywhere, but this year you have the option of learning how to make latkes from the Maccabeats, a well known Jewish a capella group, whose Hanukkah song this year is almost entirely a latke recipe, and it’s the basic recipe most people use. Click here for the Maccabeats. If you feel adventurous, there are many variations available, from sweet potato latkes to nacho style latkes, and they’re all good.